Starting with Limitations

This realisation hit me hard when I started my MBA. Surrounded by peers with different and impressive backgrounds, I reflected on my own experience: a BBA, a 3-year gap, and one and a half years of my degree during Covid-19.

The world was completely changed when I left home. So, the hobbies were those in which I didn’t excel or weren't competitive in the area. The skills were learnt but I didn’t have certification to prove it, and I couldn’t get experience of living in the house, right? (Well, there should be because it actually tests your patience in many areas.)

The moral of this situation was that I did not have much to say about myself when it came to the introductory part in college. The only thing I knew was that I loved to write.

So, I tried to improve it, focusing on one genre without exploring the others. Isn’t it unfair?

I started reading news about Startups, IPOs, IT, Core Finance, and the Global Economy, or even detailed case studies, all of which sound like heavy and fancy words in the corporate world. Well, they should -because they are.

Somewhere, I compromised with the genre I started with, "Emotions and Feelings of living beings", to stabilise my career, and I did an injustice to my Art. As a result, I became more confused with learning, and in the process, I lost the essence of why I even want to write.

One day I wanted to study a case study of HBS, but the next day the Latest news can be about IPOs in SMEs, or the next day I want to read about Neon Essays or even psychic.

Starting with limitations became my pattern, and now I realise it killed most of the creativity, the potential of exploring the idea, because I want a Job with good CTC. Sounds practical, but harsh on me.

Just because I write, I wanted to be a writer, I realised.

But in all this process, I limit myself to knowledge to gain more knowledge.

My knowledge and learning had become a barrier to gaining more knowledge.

HIT that Hard, Right?

I was The One Who was holding myself back all this time, but never knew how to release to fly like a bird above the ocean, and why the ocean?

I flew only above the surface. Just because I felt familiarity with pathways of earth and never with the big, giant Ocean and Sky.

I was scared that I would forever be stuck above the ocean, roaming without any directions because there were no concrete highways or city gates.

Later, I realised there are several paths - the Sun, the Moon, the constellation, the air flow and the icebergs; (Remember how Jack Sparrow always found his way in the big, giant ocean because he understood the language of the sea.) These were all the Pathways of the ocean that I only viewed as picturesque, never thought deeply.  

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In real life, too, we tried to understand most of the different perspectives with a few glasses only.

For example, I tried to learn finance with an understanding of literature's POV. The real meaning behind learning finance is totally forgotten before it started, which was how money works, rather than I went with the etymology of the word “FINANCE” as an outcome, I stuck with the depth and left the flow.

In simple words, I explored without experiencing and understaing it’s essence in the world, which cost me mental peace and unnecessary overload of expectations of myself. In that process, I created a barrier to liberty by being an amateur who is an explorer and learner of life.