Career crisis or Identity crisis?

I am a second-year MBA student

I have done a BBA from my sweet hometown

What else can I say about myself?

It's all about the career part, who I am, right? In the future, I want to live; that's the only goal for now I can see for myself. I haven't figured out what I want to pursue exactly because, according to my friend, I am an anti-social social person, basically an ambivert.

In 2016, this syndrome was born in me, before I was also an introvert. In high school, I was a shy child who never liked to speak out, even if I knew the answer, but I often forgot half of the information I had never tried to speak in public. I tried sports, but my favourite sport was 'Skateboard', and at that time it wasn't really popular in India (and still growing as far as I know) because it was 2016 when they announced that in 2020 males and females can participate. It is a street-style sport; obviously, it took time to gain recognition. Let it be a Skateboard apart.

My life changed when I turned 16th, and I was never the same after that. I become a SOCIAL-Person.

Not by choice, but by life. I used to hang out after my tutions with friends, and it was pretty fun ( although the truth is none of them are my friends right now). People come and go. But it was eye-opening. At that point, I wanted to pursue CA Yes. One of the most prestigious professions in India. Because accounting, economics and maths were the love of my life at that time, and I still remember I used to study without picking up my phone, but I dropped the plan, again and thought I wasn't ready enough at that time, and to be honest, I wasn't dedicated either.

Then I pursued BBA in HR (last year's subject). At that time, I knew I wasn't a people person either. I love being around people, but managing them is still a big noooooo. So, I took a gap year, looking at my career choices' history. My mother was really supportive in this process; she just wants me to become independent and happy in life. My father always wants me to start a business, and I am in a big no because our ideology is different, at least for now ( the older I get, the more I am turning into my father). No one knows the future, right

Right now, I am pursuing an MBA, finally, after 3 years of pausing my life in a different stream, which is not my expertise or interest. even though I am getting a new experience, though, and it's quite eye-opening and sometimes feels like running for my life, and it's too late.......

Now I understand what taking responsibility is - it's not only taking responsibility for making the right decision, but also dealing with the wrong decision you took in life.

I guess that's how life works: you make a mistake ( I have made a lot, as you see, half of them were also in personal life, but still fine by me since I am legally a living being), you rectify the mistake, learn from it and grow. I haven't learn how to rectify properly, but I am finding weird methods to cope with it.

Hope, from my life, you will learn it's okay to give yourself another chance rather than just mourning over the mistakes, though the problem is about a career or personal life. No one person will give you another chance until and unless you yourself are not willing to give yourself a chance to rectify the mistake.

Still, the journey is looking beautiful and full of colour; it's hard not to enjoy, even though the crispiness is coming from your own life, not everyone gets that kind of life, right?